It was around the writing of the last attempt that I mentioned to my advisor that I had no idea what I was doing. I also revealed how I write.
If someone else were to watch me engage in my natural writing style, they would think I was a lazy procrastinator. However, this couldn’t be further from the truth because during that time that others think I’m procrastinating, I am actually thinking about the structure of what I am about to write.
I used to say to my parents when they would tell me to just write that, “I don’t have the first sentence.” They would never comprehend what the hell I was trying to say because, for most other people, you don’t need a first sentence, you just write! But that was not so for me.
However, after explicitly learning both about the writing process and how to teach and help in it, I realize that it had nothing to do with the first sentence, it was the structure of the whole paper.
So here’s what my writing process looks like: I sit or play a mindless video game (i.e. minecraft or runescape) while thinking about the structure of what I want to write. At some point, I figure out the structure, but then I need to figure out the rhetorical moves that I will make to get from one part to the next. Finally, I have to figure out the first sentence because for me, that is what cohesivizes (even though that is not even a word) my paper and what I am trying to say.
Then, I start writing and I write shit faster than most other people, but that is because my pre-writing process takes up the most time. By the time that I start writing, my brain knows exactly how and where I am going to go.
So, I let my advisor know about this process I have and he changed the way he was doing it. He asked me to write the abstract (the summary of what I will be talking about) of my thesis.
After having written quite a few abstracts (which he constantly asked me to rewrite focusing on different things), I began to see how the abstract I was writing fit with the introduction that I had no idea how to write.
I’m gonna paste these one per post.
According to many autism experts, autistic people lack the ability to guess what other people are thinking and feeling; in other words, they lack a theory of mind (ToM). Using the theoretical frameworks of disability studies and rhetoric of science, I will critically analyze the nesting dolls that make up ToM research and reveal it for what it is, a pseudoscientific theory. Then, I will examine how ToM research has influenced the advocacy organization Autism Speaks to reveal the answer to two integral questions: (1) what role does science, be it pseudo or actual, perform in autism advocacy groups like Autism Speaks’ practices, and (2) who is Autism Speaks actually advocating for? The answers to these questions will lead us to the conclusion that pseudoscience leads to pseudoadvocacy and this pseudoadvocacy subjugates the autistic into silence.